New Beginning

I have been wanting to write for quite a long time now. I have often read of the term 'writers block' but for almost four long years now, have experienced it myself. Being able to write is a blessing. Some might wonder what I am talking about, but really, free flow of thoughts and being able to just sit aside and coherently put it across in words is sometimes hard. Sometimes one walks into a cocoon, a special place where you like to be secluded from thoughts, though not really alone. You immerse yourself in monotonous everyday happenings, fight away from any moment for yourself. You don't engage a whole lot with anybody, just go about the mundane, speak as much as you need to to get done work, spend your woken hours immersing yourself in the life of virtual characters and just live. This generation makes it so very easy with the computer and television. You fail to realize that hours, days, months and years have passed. Once you are in a shell, you are there. The longer you are there, the harder it becomes to wake up and say 'hello world'! The world around does not really miss you, its just you, refusing to connect with yourself. Sitting all alone for half an hour, eyes closed, with just oneself becomes the worst nightmare one can every imagine. And from there, you want to come back. Not because you miss the world, not because you miss close ones, but just because you miss yourself. You want that inner self, who can think clearly and coherently. Its the search for oneself. It will take time, but is sure bound to happen. Someday soon! "Yeh duniya laakh sataye, khud se khafa na rehna kabhi, Dheeme hi sahi, apne aap ko khud tak aane to de yoohin"